| Dec. 17th, 2005 @ 03:01 am my life=God's stage |
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So I want to tell everyone how God has saved me. God did a miracle for me, I want everyone to know about it.
As many of you know, I've been attending DMACC in ankeny and sleeping on a couch in Linden. This semester has easily been the hardest semester of my life. I was never sure if I would have enough money each week for gas. I was constantly tired and discouraged. But I still believed that God would use this semester and get me back into Iowa State. The day before thanksgiving I turned in my petition for reinstatement. That is my application to get back into Iowa State. After 2 weeks I got an email saying that it had been denied. Immediately I felt sick to my stomach. I called some friends right away and asked them to pray for me. I myself went to the z37 building for a couple of hours and cried out to God, begging him to come through for me. Although my world had been rocked for sure, I had a certain confidence and peace, it was unexplainable. My only option was to appeal Iowa States decision to deny my petition. In order to do that I had to redo my whole application and present it to the dean of the college of human sciences. When I talked to him over the phone he indicated that after friday the 16th, he would leave to go out of the country and wouldn't be back until January 8th. So I had to meet with him by friday, or I wouldn't be able to appeal. As the week progressed I simply couldn't get my application together. I needed progress reports from professors, and I needed my advisor from ISU to sign a form for me. By wednesday none of this had happened, and I was starting to accept that it wouldn't happen. Luckily wednesday night my advisor called me and told me she could meet with me on thursday morning. (which originally was supposed to the be the time I was to meet with the dean of the college, I had to call and cancel because I didn't have everything together)And on thursday I got my last progress report in. Really the whole week I had been bouncing from peace to doubt. One minute I would feel certain that God would come through, the next I would be really scared. Because I began to doubt, I turned to some old sins. I was spinning out of control. Thursday I scheduled an appointment to see the dean. None of my progress reports were as high as I thought they would be, and that really discouraged me. I knew I had to try though. Thursday night some of us went to see Christy Korthal's theater class perform. Somehow I found myself sitting alone, and I found myself really scared. A play was going on, it was about Joan of Arc. Suddenly in the midst of everything going on around me I heard God speak to me. He said, "Why did you leave?" I didn't have a good answer. As I was desperately trying to think of a good one, He spoke again: "Stop sinning". It was what I heard next that gave me the courage to face the task ahead of me. "Never, ever, EVER give up". With three sentences, God took care of everything that I had fouled up with my doubt. I knew I had to go forward. On friday, at 11am I met with the dean. We talked about why I failed in the past, and I tried to convince him that I had worked hard and learned a lot of valuable lessons. He told me that he would have to read the essay I wrote on why I failed, and what I will do to change, and he had to make some phone calls to decide whether or not He would admit me. I waited for a half-hour outside of his office. It was the longest half-hour of my life. The whole time i was praying "God, save me! defend me! come to my aid! God, I need you!" Finally after a half-hour or so, his door opened and he invited me back in. His tone was grim and I was totally expecting him to say that he too would deny my petition. He did mention some things that were hard to overlook, but then this sentence came out:"But, I think these things are petty compared to the hard work and sincerity I've seen in you and your application, I've decided to readmit you." I was in shock. He continued to talk a little more, and I tried to listen as best I could, but I felt like I was in a dream. I left his office with an uncontrollable smile. God had done it, He had come through for me. He had saved me. Rescue had come! This whole semester, as hard as it was, finally made sense. It all came together. I got readmitted on the last possible day. I know that God orchestrated it like this because it would demonstrate His power. I know I won't easily forget this day. I've still got some small details to work out, but I will be in Linden, at Iowa State this spring. Praise God from whom ALL blessings flow!
-teege
Psalm 40:1-10
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man
who makes the LORD his trust,
who does not look to the proud,
to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]
5 Many, O LORD my God,
are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us
no one can recount to you;
were I to speak and tell of them,
they would be too many to declare.
6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire,
but my ears you have pierced [b] , [c] ;
burnt offerings and sin offerings
you did not require.
7 Then I said, "Here I am, I have come—
it is written about me in the scroll. [d]
8 I desire to do your will, O my God;
your law is within my heart."
9 I proclaim righteousness in the great assembly;
I do not seal my lips,
as you know, O LORD.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.
I do not conceal your love and your truth
from the great assembly. |
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